Don’t Put Off Tomorrow….
This week has been an interesting one for me and several things have emerged as a result. I have a high threshold normally of pain and I’ll do my best to push through it, move forward but this week, I experienced the greatest physical pain that I have ever experience.
I cannot begin to even describe the pain to you but it was relentless, non-stopping and slowly getting stronger and stronger.
I have been run over by a car while riding my pushbike 3 years ago and although at the time, that was a massive OUCH!!! Hence the reason I see every day a gift that I’m here. (4 neurosurgeon’s have all said I should be brain dead at the best today, if not dead- well as bad as that was, my pain this week eclipsed this 20 fold if that is possible.
What I had at the peak of its intensity drove me to the point tears and utter helplessness and a sense of loneliness being on my own.
Walking was an effort, driving was so difficult and yet I had to make my way to the doctors which was 45 minutes away as I haven’t yet checked out the Drs in my new area at this stage. There was a stage when walking I had to stop and I was only taking shuffles, barely walking. I had to stop, as I was about to pass out. I could feel it coming on.
Yesterday I was meant to have set of for my Lighthouse Tour but I set off tomorrow and I had to delay the departure by a day which I have never had to ever before to give myself time to recover and fortunately in some ways not so in other ways, I have just a few so it was easy to work around the folk to see if they minded me putting things back a day and in the meantime. There was a point at the height of the pain when I had told my small crew that the Tour would be cancelled if things did not pick up for me.
I was on the phone making all the calls that affected the tour and being in winter, non-busy times, there was no issue in moving things around.
People talk against the medications of today, I know some who see no value in medication at all and scorn upon it and yet, if I wasn’t put onto this medication which kicked in within 24 hrs. I would have gone completely insane, as I had reached the point where I couldn’t take the pain any longer.
It got me thinking when you hear of people in the 80’s, 90’s looking after themselves and yes I know some do have care from the outside and there should be more of that.
For those who stay in their homes as long as they can, one can only marvel and yet, know how difficult it is for them, although they may never disclose that to you.
We do the things that we do in our daily lives and we don’t think much about our bodies, meaning it is always there, we go to work, some exercise, read books, go to the loo, walk to the park, sit and ponder and if you have a partner, you make love in times of close intimacy. In other words we do things that just come natural to us and the things we do to our bodies, and the motions of movement we don’t think twice about until…….. When that is eroded away and this might be subtle at first and then not so.
Even a simple task of doing a wee we just take that little exercise for granted and yet, if we were to pass blood through that normal biological exercise, that changes our world, fear creeps in, doubt takes a strangle on us and concern and worry.
We are all at different walks of life, we all see life differently and I’m a strong believer of never putting of tomorrow for tomorrow you never know what it brings.
Don’t be someone who says,” I’m gunna one day and one day never comes and when you finally decide you re gunna, you can’t due to the physical nature of what you are going through at the time.
From my accident of three years ago I still live my life as a bonus and this; last week for me was a bigger reminder of that.
I see and know people who live their lives in fear, worried about what others will think if they do a,b and c. Sadly they deprive themselves of untold joy as they live in the fear of others. I know adults who live in the fear of their kids and even they parents. They never live the life they want to due to how their parents might react.
Remember, this is your turn to live, not to live in fear of those around you and as your fear will slowly suffocate you unless you take those shackles off.
Can you remember when you were the most happiest and If you do and your not as happy now, then take charge and rediscover it, do what you need to do to bring the state of happiness back to you.
Not all fear is bad but in the cases that I referring to with what I have seen, it becomes crippling to some and their lives have slipped them by before they have had the chance to experience the fullness of their own lives, its all but gone.
We have choices in how we want to live, we can either live our life to the fullness and in that I’m not talking about the material world, I’m referring to the wholeness of you, The fullness of life comes from living a life that brings you the greatest joy.
Remember, we all are aging and even if you are a young one reading this, you will be my age in no time. We can’t escape it and in the context of time, we live once and it’s a short existence, as we know it, so why not live it without fear, not in fear of others, but live it in the context of what brings you the happiest and joy.
There are others things that have emerged for me through this past week but that can be for another time.
Pain is not to be seen as your enemy but rather as a friend as when we have pain it tells us that something is wrong and to seek medical help. In my case, if I had acted on the signs 8 days before, I wouldn’t have gone through what I did but I did. I just assumed it would disappear and all would be good but me putting my head in the sand, never changed the fact that this pain was going just keep on going.
In most of our lives we have elements that are missing, things we long for and that applies to me as well as I know I have but until they are fulfilled, one should be encouraged to still live your lives the best you can with the greatest joy that you can as we never know what tomorrow may bring.
That’s why every moment I can get away, in the middle of nowhere and smell the air, watch the skies above me, feel the breeze in my face, hear the thunder in the distance etc., that’s when Pete is most contented and every moment when I’m out there I’m truly thankful for life and being given the ability to love the simple things of life out there as those simple things of life are the most rewarding.
Picking up a camera, encourages you to go outside and once you are out there, you’ll discover a world that you thought was not possible. I don;t just speak from my experience. I speak from others through my observation of the joy that photography has given them. Oh the wonderful stories I could share on that levels about others but that’s not my right, I’ll leave it up to them to share there own stories but I have been blessed to see their lives encounter the joy of photography having emerge from difficult times.
If we are open to it the light can always get through to us is we desire it. A world filled with light offers the richness of life.